Tired...

BGM: Time - Hans Zimmer

Tired...tired...And so tired I feel...I just want to get up but a part of me is pulling me down...I am feeling paralyzed and numb...I am feeling weak and exhausted as if I just came out of a war...

And the silence around...is so strange...it is so silent that I can hear my heartbeat...so silent that I feel I am the last person on earth...The sun is looking so gloomy in the distance...almost swallowed by the clouds that I can't make out what time of the day it is...the sea in front of me is so strangely silent and calm that it seldom made a tide...is it tired too? I don’t know...the world around is looking so pale...I closed my eyes and listened...Nothing but my heartbeat and breath...

Where is everyone? Why isn't anyone around? Except for the sea in front and the infinity of sand that I could look into it, there seemed to be nothing...Why is it that I suddenly feel sad and lonely? Where is everyone who lived around me? Where is everyone who was part of my life? Why aren't they around anymore? Was it my mistake? Has the world ended? Or is this the end?

And my heart...I am feeling as if it wants to come out…it is chanting and reminding all that I wanted to do in life...and is slowly climbing up my chest...My mind is tired too...May be it is feeling the guilt of bringing me into this situation..

Where am I? Is it actually my life? Am I lost? Where am I supposed to go? Which way should I take if I make it to my feet? Which direction should I head to reach where I started from? To reinvent everything and everyone I liked and loved in life....to feel energy and adrenaline again...to breathe again...and to feel life again...

I want to get back to where I started from...I want to go home...But...My eyes are closing...Tired...tired ...and so tired I feel...I just want to get up but a part of me is pulling me down...I am feeling paralyzed and numb...Let me sleep...sleep and sleep...hoping to wake up somewhere beautiful...May be that’s the only way to get back...

A lazy day

An excellent weekend and now back to square one...Monday
But then this Monday is different..Not one of those Mondays in childhood when I could hang out with friends with no consideration for what was happening around..not one of those Mondays when I was a student listening to lectures..and not one when I used to rush to office as an employee staring at the long week ahead...
This Monday, I feel so jobless..Nothing to do...Got up at 11 to start with...had breakfast....Tried to sleep again, but couldn't, probably there is a ceiling for the number of hours a person can sleep in a day..
Checked mobile for messages and missed calls..Ya there were two each, all from the service provider..
Checked whatsapp -nothing there
Facebook - no nothing there too
Any emails - no, no and no respectively for my gmail, yahoo and hotmail ids..
Ok..leave all that...anything in my fake accounts - nothing there as well
Ok back to mobile - nothing there again..
Any events in town listed in newspaper - no nothing
Any new movies - I knew it was a No...as excepted on any given day except a Friday..
Just moved to balcony....Wanted to check if someone was around in the neighborhood...All doors closed, no sign of any movement except in the NH..Even the trees seem dead...
Back in room...almost done with this post..still nothing to do....
Everyone around seems busy..no one is around...friends are getting busy with life..most a phase or two ahead in their stage of life compared to me..and here I am..Don't know how many get this privilege this late in their life...Getting up late on a Monday morning....staying lazy and listening to music with no thoughts of work or office..
Sort of an 'I am legend' - Will Smith situation...except for the dog..Am I feeling good or bad or am I going nuts...Don't know..Seems I am the only one here in town..Alive!!!

How can two days in a week be this different!!!

SURFING + SKY DIVING + LIFE = WOW!!!

I have never done it before...I may never do it in my life…But I am madly in love with surfing and sky diving… And I really wish I could do it someday...Thanks to Point Break, the movie, for giving me so real a feel and for opening my mind towards a life style that i always wanted to have.. short and full of events - something similar to the life of a cracker - having born when its lit, bursting away all the way attracting everyone around towards it and dying off before too many gather around, gifting them wonderful memories to cherish... probably leaving everyone wish it lasted a bit longer

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Welcome 2013:)

It is so easy to reset a mobile.to restart a system...with the hope that everything will be safe sound and fine as before...and the confidence level of this hope is very high, as 9 out of 10 times the reset or the restart delivers… In life too, many a time we wish to have something of that sort...something that can reset the whole past that we can start over again, making everything right and correcting the mistakes that we had committed in our journey of life till then...or something that could at least roll back things a bit to the time of our life when everything was perfect...everything was absolutely fine.. May be that’s why man has always been so wild in his desire for time travel machines...and the depth of details in the movies and stories that depict the same show how deep people have thought about it.. Unfortunately there isn't any mechanism for that. And how much ever technologically advanced we get, I don't think there is going to be anything that will help man to travel time or to teleport...And this makes a new year so important in someone's life...Its like a milestone...a restart or a restore point where in people take resolutions to be good or to be better...or not to repeat mistakes that they made this year...or to celebrate life as great as they celebrated it this year… everyone hopes it to be better than the last.. And now here we are at the doorstep of 2013...An year that Mayan calendar denied the existence of...May be half way through the year many may feel it bad...many may want to go back...many may want to reset or restart...But there isn't any mechanism for that...Nothing is permanent...All situations good or bad is bound to change...As long as we are not gods, all that we can do is sit back and hope...sit back and dream and work towards it..:)

Welcome 2013.....Same as the billions who wish it to be the best in their life, I hope it is one better, if not the best... Happy New Year:)