Sunday, October 28, 2012

Missing you so much – My Love!!!!

Yet another Sunday… FB flooded with online friends.. Still confused whom to ping.. whom to have a chat with…
But in spite of all these distractions, I am thinking of you and you alone… No one makes me feel the same way as you do.. Some things in life can’t be replaced.. And you are irreplaceable in my life…
I can’t express how much I miss you today and I really wish to be near you at the earliest…
I don’t know whether you remember, I met you first 4 years back in Kerala. At the first sight, I knew, we were connected. I could feel it. And I thank god for gifting me that moment. Since then, there hasn’t been a day in my life that I haven’t thought about you and there may not be any going forward. You are the best thing that ever happened in my life and I promise you I won’t let you go. I was lucky enough to have everything go my way and to get something going between us at the earliest..
I can’t forget the days I spent with you… After the first meet, I know we had minimal chances to spent time together. In fact, we have spent very little time together till date… Somehow or the other we always ended up in two distant places, thanks to me and my terrific fateL Still despite the long distances that separated us, you have always been there for me. You have given me support and strength always and whenever I felt down, you have given me the strength and courage to rise above it.. But today, I feel so tired.. More tired than ever. I just wish to reach you as soon as I can…and relive those moments we had together…
I miss the long outings with you…In fact, last year was the best in my life.. Somehow I was able to make it back to you.. So much time to spend with you…The chats and hang outs.. Memorable weekends…and the journeys and the fun…I always wanted to be there for you though I was able to do that only a few times in my life…The few months with you last year was the best in my life till date and I really wish to create a lot many moments worth remembrance with you… Many a time I have felt that you complete me… And today I feel so incomplete… Why oh why are you not here??
I know your stint with me has not been so fruitful all along… there was always this distance problem between us.. You somewhere and me somewhere else.. And then the horrific road accident that we had last year.. I never wanted to hurt you.. It was all my fault.. I did not keep enough attention on the road which caused the accident.. That was one of the worst nights of my life. I could feel that I had lost control.. And before I could do anything I found myself flung off in the air doing a somersault.. I never knew that I could do a somersault till then and I don’t think I can do it without external help again.. Yes I was injured badly and I was in real pain… But what really hurt me was your condition.. When I landed on ground, flat on my back, I could see you still rolling along having bruises all over you.. I don’t know how I could suppress my pain.. I hated me a lot that moment for hurting you.. How could I let this happen to you? I could just stand up and make it to you.. You were silent.. I could not control my tears seeing the bruises on your body.. I was least concerned about my injury. In fact I did not even notice that my hands and legs were bleeding. It was 9.30 at night and I stood there helpless on the NH 47 looking for possible help. It took half an hour on that dreaded night before I could find some helping hands. Thanks to two people who stopped by to help. I don’t remember their names though they had told me. All I wanted to was to take you home safely and to get you healed… I am so sorry for all that.. I know it took you some time to recover… But post recovery I felt you more stunning than ever… I realized how much I wanted you that day.. And I had decided not to leave you alone after that..
Alas! Some stupid decisions and here I am at Haryana – again away from you.. I know you would be a bit frustrated with me by now.. One year since then…and today I feel so tired, as I mentioned, of this hide and seek game.. I just want to let you know that I need you always with me.. Situations and some of my own stupidity kept you away from me.. I promise that it won’t happen again and that I will make it back to you at the earliest..
Can’t wait to reach you… feel you… kiss you…. And set out for another long trip with you…I just can’t wait to feel myself complete once again…to feel the rush of adrenaline in me.. and to feel alive once again, my dearest RTR-160 AB8475….